Ramblings of a Pregnant Woman

So here I am looking at my baby counter that says I have 1 day left...HA! This little guy shows no signs of arriving tomorrow. I suppose there is always a chance and so what do you think would be going through my mind on the day before this child enters the world? I wish that I had something profoundly spiritual to say about this whole experience, but those thoughts haven't come to me...yet. This is what I am thinking about and wondering:

• Why am I sweating when it is only 65 degrees outside?
• It's gonna hurt.
• I have to remember to pay 4 bills next week.
• Should I regret not taking more photos of my pregnant belly?
• I'm so glad my mom and sister are coming soon.
• Breastfeeding?
• How did I grow a human being?
• Pain is painful.
• I wish people would stop telling me not to worry...I can't.

It's overwhelming and I know the next couple of weeks will just be a blur. Looking back on the past nine months, it hasn't been that bad. I never got sick. I have only had typical discomfort and now I am being told to sit around all day. What more could I want in these last few days of selfish freedom?

I expect that my life and my perspective on life will change. Right now, I cannot know how or in what way. The only evidence or experience I can pull from are the changes I have previously made in my life. High school >> College......College>>Mission....Misson>>New College....Single>>Married....etc. Each phase has brought change, because of choices that I have made. Every time I have moved into a new phase there are things that I miss about the phase before, but I cannot compare phases.

There is no such thing as "balance" in life. I simply make choices about what is important and imperative. Even though sometimes I don't want to own those choices. I can't have it all(i.e. if I want short hair, then I can't have a ponytail). Each new phase brings with it so many great new things and that is what I choose to look forward to, not what I am giving up.

Marriage>>Kids...bring it on.